Trust In…. YOU!

The last few months I have been preparing my mind, body and spirit for the arrival of our snowflakes. In the process I have felt panicked to get some work done. So I purchased 2 properties at once, listed one of my other properties, and kicked my health coaching business into high gear.  What do any of these things have to do with my snowflakes? Well, I like to call it “financial nesting”.  I’m getting my businesses set up so I can put all of my thought and effort towards pregnancy and parenting.  Yet I feel I am neglecting my family now. There are so many ‘what ifs’ in this fertility process that I need to be present for myself and my family during that time.  What if it doesn’t take the first or second or EVEN third time? What if I miscarry? What if we get pregnant with multiples? What if I’m a miserable pregnant woman? What if I become that mom that I never wanted to become?

Well, through the process of “financial nesting”, I’ve managed to leverage myself (time and money) to the hilt. Buying, selling, borrowing, and scheduling all for the greater good!! I feel like one of those stock traders on wall street. But don’t worry, I’m the kind of ginger that can DO IT ALL!!

Nope… Nope I am definitely not that kind of ginger. I’m the kind that has panic attacks over the littlest of things. Why do I do these things to myself?

I see the potential of what my businesses can be and I’m racing to the finish line – except the finish line is about 5 years out.  It’s a great game plan and I’m fast forwarding through the next 2 years so I can be present… except at the current moment I am frazzled. Presently I’m frazzled so that in the future I can be present. You following? Good. Keep up.

I don’t trust that things will fall into place as I have planned.

Today I learned an important lesson. TRUST! Trust that your dreams will come to fruition if you follow through and KNOW that the universe has your back. Trust that God is watching and has your best interest at heart. Trust that you have surrounded yourself with good people so you are always taken care of.  Each day I have been saying these things to myself yet not truly believing them. TRUST SHEILA!

As of this morning, my bank account was literally down to $0 and I have several bills mounting up with all of my properties. My contractor is currently working without pay and my mortgage is due on another property that I own. I’m racking up credit card debt for the cost of materials for the flip with no way to pay that bill as well. With all of my mantras and deep breathing and meditation I just didn’t know how I could make it all work. Did I really TRUST that my people (high and low) would come through for me?

It turns out I should have. I had gone through all possible financials and couldn’t think of how I could come up with the funds I needed for the remainder of the month. And then it happened… My tenants, who I have had for the past four years, paid all of their back rent including late fees. Enough to pay my contractor, my bank, and my credit card.  I knew they owed me the money, I just didn’t expect it to be paid… at all. They had been through hard times and I had allowed them to fall behind.

Here is the thing, the tenants have to move out in 2 months because the property they live in recently sold to another family that wants to move in.  I feel as if I’m kicking them out.  Though, with about any other landlord they would have been evicted by now.

All a part of my master ‘financial nesting’ plan.

I need the gain from that property to pay for the next property so that the business can grow and our dreams to retire sooner rather than later can come true.  I don’t love being a landlord, yet it’s working for us. It’s a business after all.  They have always been good people and that’s why I’ve held onto this property for so long. The rent was too low and the cost to run it wasn’t worth the time. I’m glad I’ve been good to them as a landlord. I’m glad I trusted them to pay me when they could. Not many landlords have the means or the confidence to do that.

Makes me think about others I have been good too, but mostly to those I have not been so good too. Where in my life could I have done better? Imagine, had I put that positive intention out there earlier in my life… what amazing things could have happened? Imagine the possibilities for the future! It may not come around immediately, but ultimately you will receive that which you have given whether you asked for it or not.

 

37“Do not judge, and you will not be judged; and do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; pardon, and you will be pardoned. 38“Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure– pressed down, shaken together, and running over. For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return.”…

Luke 6:37

 

“Self-confidence is knowing that we have the capacity to do something good
and firmly decide not to give up.”

His Holiness the Dalai Lama

 

“I have just three things to teach: simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures.”

Lao Tzu

 

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